Like a lie

Sleep mingles under these heavy eyelashes
As I sit at my dirty dinner table
This coffee unable to lift me from my inevitable nightmare
So finally calamity steps softly on my sleepy eyelids
And all this dissolves
The streetlights snuffed out
The dinner quietly destroyed
The coffee evaporates
My dream state awakes
My eyes open unto a world of chaotic lipids
Tightly bound by stomach tissue these
Painful pricks exist under organs hot and pulsing
As my mind observes this subconscious facade
This city of thoughts terrible and wrong
This desolate dreamscape of horror
This sky so gray that my bound ball of blood curdling sentiment
Violently and unsuspectingly detonates
And every vein and capillary pulsates to this new horrible rhythm
A beat I bend for and beg to stop
This all happening on an empty street in bare feet
In a dream in a diner asleep
My mind plays such a tedious trick
A torture so slow and hollow that my dear heart does not dare follow
Alone with my mind as my company

A companion so retched that he only comes out when my conscious is dead
He takes me to places that are so confused
So horribly me that I want to scrape my eyes out
I don’t want to see
Long sweeping shadows cradle my curious mind
A monster of abstract absence of light
Can be inconceivably beautiful
So lost is my mind I wander away into a trance
So much like a dance that I feel the soft breathing
The shadow heaving in melodic pulses under my warm fingertips
As this night dips so does this