It's About Feelings.

It's about feelings.

Lately I've been thinking of the past,
how the comforts just don't last,
and how they mingle with the pain
and sort of swirl up like a hurricane
and rage all through my head.

All those memories reveal
all the cracks that didn't heal,
all those dreams that filled the wasted days,
day wasted dreaming.

Time is ridiculing me
for everything I've failed to see.
It's like a rattlesnake 
that whips around to bite the baby.

And, the venom's in my soul.
it's the glue that keeps me whole,
keeps me burning through the days.
I really wish I could explode.

~~~~~

I think today, I will explode.
I think today, I'll give my thoughts a rest 
and be more random,
a little crazy like I was before...
I'll breathe deep and ignore my conscience.

Author's Note

Please let me know what you think?

Reviews

[Leo]

brother that was very eloquent and really really moved me..past is haunting me as of last month like no other and my only solace was to seek words that describe how I feel and when I read yours I said to myself I need to give myself a break..but isn't that what makes a great poet my poet friend!
All those memories reveal
all the cracks that didn't heal,
all those dreams that filled the wasted days,
And, the venom's in my soul.
it's the glue that keeps me whole,
keeps me burning through the days.
I really wish I could explode.

Brilliant!
Feel free to check Unchained or Vagabond u might like them..leave me a review why not :)

[mattavelli]

Thanks for reading and I hope you're feeling better. I'll check your poems out. :)

[tracey]

a great piece matt, iv just started to read some of your post some fantastic pieces keep up the good work

[Diane]

"Rage all through my head." I think everyone can pick something out of here that fits them.

[lightsong]

I read Your words, and I see that You are aware of Your own self, aware of the unhealed wounds that need to be healed, those emotional wounds, and this is the first key to the complete healing, it's so important to know and understand Your self, Your own feelings, and You are! perfection in the state of being and mind is Your goal, and as You keep the determination, You will find it, but it won't harm to take a break, and go crazy and wild :)

[lightsong]

I notice You are from Florida, I pray You are safe, You and all Your loved ones.

[mattavelli]

Thank you, Light! :)
All is well here. We didn't get the worst of the storm.

[Windah]

Your writing speaks volumes. Life in words. Keep sharing.

[mattavelli]

Thank you, Windah! :)

[Relic]

If the poem was a stream it could just as easily flow through my yard too. Its relatable.

Nice.

[mattavelli]

Thanks, Relic! :)

[Bacchus]

really great one here
something i totally get
never heard it before now in words-
thanks

[mattavelli]

Thank you, Bacchus! :)

[Papaya]

4th verse, 2nd from the bottom.
That is super. That venom can translate to passion and fuel. It's the juice that makes things grow. Nice one Mattavelli.

[mattavelli]

Thank you, Ana! :)

[Papaya]

Anytime bud. :)

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

So much deep raw emotion and feelings. Your poetry is so meaningful.
Your rhyme scheme is brilliant and amazes me.
I love your poetry Matty its very very good, you have quite the talent :)
Keep writing :)

[mattavelli]

Thank you, Cimmy! :)

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

your welcome :)

[barleygirl]

I love this. I was feeling this way back about ten years when my life crashed bad. It's taken me all these years to drag myself thru the detritus of the meltdown & find a new direction. But I'll never forget how it felt to feel like exploding for a few years there. Your details are well done & original sounding -- "rattlesnake whips around to bite the baby" . . . "venom's in my soul" . . . so many intense descriptions of how it feels to have your life poisoned for awhile.

[mattavelli]

Thanks!
I wrote this as a song. Not finished. Haha