Chemicals

I will use the chemicals

sparingly, willingly

sending a tingle down this spine

into feelings so divine

Now I feel like a god

or at least in control of myself

never asking for anyone's help

not showing concern for my well being

I will outwardly smile

when I'm consumed by hate

trying to change these mood swings

in a plastic world so fake

Seeing the color black

within a world weighed so heavily

on this bending back

not ever falling for this line of crap

Taking these chemicals

saturated in our food and drink

synthetic yearnings for maelstrom turnings

no time to stop and think

While I slowly sink below the horizon line

yes, I am literally quite fine

cast adrift from maddening mankind

toward some place civilized

mathiasthom

written 12/23/19