Chapter forty-nine

Chapter 49

“Sara!” I exclaimed my first day back to school she’d visited everyday of course but it was different to see her in school. I’d decided to quit teaching and go back to taking classes. I’d went to Leo and Dad though this time instead of trying to pick my own. I spent half my day after my week off of school fighting with Booth and the other half in the old magic and history classes the ones that nobody knew anymore and Cole was taking them with me because even when he was just part demon and part witch he hadn’t taken them.

“So you aren’t teaching?” Sara asked confused it’d already made it around the school that some old girl had replaced me.

“No I want to go back to classes. I’m taking the old classes.”

“Like the ones nobody takes anymore?”

“Yeah I studied that stuff when I was stuck in bed and it’s actually interesting half a day in it and half a day in the gym.”

“What about a week without fighting?”

“Cole is shimmering me straight to Dad after class before his Demons 125 class and I’m to stay there until he comes to get me to go home.”

“Wow you are being watched.”

“Yeah I wish you’d take the classes with me it’s a lot better than Mr. Knight.” I laughed.

“I’ll go ask Tristan.” She smiled she’d been at the house so much Dad had told her she was kicked out if she didn’t call him, Tristan. Cole showed up beside me again suddenly.

“Did you do what you needed to?” I asked.

“Yes I did where’s Sara you told me she’d be with you?”

“Relax she just left to talk to Dad about switching her schedule so she can take classes with us.” I smiled leaning into him. I never took my ability to move without pain and to do it quickly for granted anymore. He squeezed me gently always careful even now that Doc had told him I was okay as long as I took everything careful and didn’t overdo it. “I love you.” I smiled up at him.

“I love you too.” He promised kissing me gently but the kiss went deeper and you could feel the tension that had continued to build between us lately as we both tried to fight what we wanted so badly. He pulled away quickly when my hand started to run along his neck.

“I’m sorry.” I whispered knowing that it made it harder on him when I did stuff like that. I did it unconsciously though.

“It’s not your fault we just have a month now. Doc finally released you.”

“Yeah I didn’t think that would ever happen. It should be easier now that we’re at school most of the day.”

“It’ll be even easier when you start fighting. You’ll be at school constantly.”

“You’re going to let it become an absolute obsession aren’t you?” I asked laughing.

“Yes.” He nodded quickly.

“Let’s get to class.” I sighed grabbing my books. He put his arm around me and led me into our first class it was history but would never mention us. We made it through the morning enjoying the classes and then it was lunch and we walked into the library grabbing books to start on the essay we’d gotten in first. I closed the book after reading for a little bit though we both knew enough to write a hundred page essay let alone a two page. He let his close too and turned to me knowing I wanted him too but unsure of why. I let my lips fall onto his eagerly though and the way I was kissing him let him know quickly. He pulled away as soon as he figured it out.

“We can’t Lily-be. It will hurt you.” He shook his head holding me close and I heard the pain it caused him to have to turn me down in his voice.

“I’m sorry.” I sighed knowing he was right but after a few minutes I put my lips back on his deciding it was worth the risk.

“Lily-be…” he started pulling away.

“It’s worth the risk.” I shook my head kissing him harder. “I miss you, Cole.”

“No. No it’s not worth the risk. Not for me it isn’t.” he shook his head pulling away and walking towards the door of the library. I knew it was too hard on him to stay here with me when I was like this but it hurt. I felt a tear fall and I put my knees to my chest but when I looked up he was in front of me with a book. “I see it as we have two choices I can either go on a vacation or we can cast a spell where we won’t feel this way about each other. If I stay here and we feel this way about each other this will happen again and we both know how it will end. I’m not going to let it go that way. So you can choose which you would rather have.” He whispered.

“You’d be back at the end of the month?” I checked.

“We would end each the second the month was up.” He promised.

“We both know that with my jealous streak we can’t do this spell.” I whispered looking away.

“You know the only reason I would ever do this is to make it where you could get better.” He begged me to forgive him.

“I know I’m just going to miss you.” I whispered.

“I’ll miss you too but I can’t take a chance of me hurting you because I love you too much.” He promised and then he kissed me, “I’m going to go home and pack and then I’ll be gone.”

“I’ll go with you.” I begged, “Please just let me send you off.”

“Anything,” He promised kissing me again and then he shimmered us home. It already felt empty when we got there but I walked with him into our bedroom and I sat on the bed letting my mind go over the past few weeks when we’d just sat in the bed fighting this so easily it seemed with me studying and him playing with my hair. I missed it already. He laid down on the bed and patted the spot beside him and I knew my thoughts had made it to him. I laid up beside him wrapping my arms as tightly as I could around him knowing this was also goodbye as he put his arms around me, “I love you, Lily-be.” He whispered and then with a shimmer both him and his bags were gone and I had no idea where he’d gone. I realized that’d been what he wanted though he didn’t want me to be able to follow because he knew I would if I knew where he’d gone I would follow him. I’d made that obvious. I sat on the bed but after lunch when I was supposed to have been in Dad’s office he suddenly appeared in the bedroom.

“Why did Cole bring you here? Are you feeling okay?” he asked and I realized my face would be showing the pain I felt even if the wall I’d put up kept Cole from seeing it.

“Cole left.” I whispered as the tears finally broke through the dam.

“Left?” Dad asked confused and I just nodded.

“Kali…” I begged and he disappeared. He reappeared with Kalila beside him and she immediately hugged me.

“What happened?” she whispered.

“Cole left.” I moaned into her.

“He only left so that you guys wouldn’t do anything Lil he didn’t want to hurt you.” She promised.

“He knew it’d hurt me though.” I blubbered.

“He knew it’d hurt you more if you two gave into the temptation that you almost gave into.”

“I don’t care it was worth the risk. I already missed him!!!!!” I yelled into her. “So he thought the answer was to leave.” I was back to moaning but she was used to it.

“It’s just for a month Lil and you have a week until you can fight.”

“No I can fight now.” I declared getting up but suddenly the room was full of vampires.

“Do you want to rethink that?” Kalila asked.

“No because I can freeze all but two of you and those two won’t fight me because I’m not supposed to fight.”

“No but I can freeze you.” Mom warned.

“Nuh-uh.” I shook my head nobody’s powers had ever worked on me. I felt something funny though like I was going slow motion but I was still moving and I realized her freeze had slowed me and now Ben was holding me back. “You’ll let me go.” I ordered him and he let me go but suddenly I was dizzy but I fought it and started walking in slow motion again as Ethan grabbed me, “You’ll let me… go.” I had to use more power on him and when he let me go I was so dizzy I just dropped.

“That’s what happens when you overdo it.” Doc said coming in. “Now I know you can’t fight for a month though.”

“What about the intercourse?” Mom asked.

“That’s still a month. Where’s Cole?” Doc asked.

“He left.” Lindsey whispered to him but with my powerful hearing I still heard.

“Why’s my hearing getting better?” I asked Dad.

“You are turning into the ruler of the supernatural.” Leo told me.

“Great almost dying wasn’t enough.”

“Learning you weren’t invincible was one of your lessons. You and Cole will have lessons to learn and as you learn them you’ll get traits to mark you as the rulers as will everybody else that will help you if you’re meant to have helpers. You two have enough powers to do it alone.”

“Nobody can do it alone that’s why you guys failed. You thought you could do it alone.” I felt more power grow inside me. “Crap…” I groaned, “That was another lesson I needed.”

“What happened that time?” Kalila asked eagerly.

“Power boost and it kind of felt like a healing at once.”

“You might have gained the power to heal. You can’t heal yourself though so don’t try.”

“Wait you two can heal and I almost died and was in pain for weeks?” I remembered not understanding how it had failed to not come to mind earlier.

“We couldn’t heal you. You had to go through it.” Dad told me.

“Well dang.” I shook my head, “This day just gets better and better.” I threw myself on my bed. “How about I do an exchange? You two heal me so I can have my husband back and God can have his power back.” I begged painfully.

“I’m still here, Lily-be.” Cole’s thought came.

“Sure you are that’s why I can touch you.” I sent back. I felt his shimmer surround me and I closed my eyes letting it comfort me until it left. “I can’t kiss you.” I sent knowing he couldn’t fix that because his shimmer wouldn’t do for that.

“I’m sorry Lily-be but…”

“It’s for my safety I know.”

“I really would be there if I could.”

“You can stupid Doc just banned me from fighting for a month.”

“That means I definitely can’t be there until the end of the month. We might have been able to deal with it when you had your obsession back. Did he change our time?”

“No.”

“Would you tell me if he did?”

“No but he really didn’t you can even pick through my mind and hear for yourself.”

“Okay.” He laughed.

“Oh I’m starting to be shaped into the ruler of the supernatural.”

“I heard.” He laughed. “Congratulations healing and everything.”

“Too bad they wouldn’t let me use my exchange.”

“It will be okay, Lily.” He promised but then I screamed. “What’s wrong?” his actual voice filled the room.

“Something’s wrong.” Doc said.

“We got that much!!” Dad yelled over my screams.

“Lily…” Doc tried to calm me but it all hurt so bad, “Lily!!” he yelled and I forced my mouth shut cutting off the screams but I knew my eyes still held the screams I was hiding when I looked at Cole. “Where’s it hurt?” I pointed down to my stomach and my privates and that whole area where it felt like it was on fire. I hadn’t felt as much pain when I changed. “I need the level of pain.”

“Worse…” I forced out in between screams, “Than…” screams, “CHANGING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” The word itself became the scream and everybody flinched at the comparison and Cole ran over to me giving me his hand but the bones broke as soon as I touched it and I didn’t even squeeze so I just moved my hand back to the bed breaking it. Everybody flinched in sympathy realizing the pain.

“Touch her again Doc and I’ll kill you!!!!!” Cole roared when my screams got worse as Doc touched my painful spots.

“Get him out. I can’t help unless I figure out what’s gone wrong.” Doc ordered.

“NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” I screamed. “COLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” he fought all of them off and ran over to me standing where he could see me but Lucinda stood beside him holding him tightly so he would stay calm enough to stay Cole and not demon.

“She needs you.” Lucinda reminded him during one of my worst screams and I knew he was about to turn to his demon half.

“Haven’t you found anything?!” He snarled at Doc.

“No.” Doc shook his head.

“I’m two seconds from going Demon; find something now or be the first one I kill.” Cole warned and everybody backed up at his new voice.

“Cole!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” I screamed again as the pain suddenly got even worse.

“It’s okay Lily-be. I’ll make him find out what’s wrong.” He promised, “I don’t care what I’ve got to do we’ll get you better. You are the most important person to me.” I watched as he turned demon and turned to Doc.

“Now do you think you’ll find something?” he snarled as Lucinda cried but I just screamed again in pain and he let his finger run down my cheek.

“We need to get her to an ultrasound machine. I need the history of her human life. It might not have healed right when she changed.” Doc said as I felt him moving my legs to look at my private areas better.

“I’ve got her.” Cole snapped at Doc when he started to touch me. Cole gently touched me and shimmered me letting me down in the same position still screaming in a bed then he brought Doc. “You better figure it out.” He warned still demon Cole.

“I’m trying.” Doc promised.

“Try harder this isn’t just anybody this is my wife this is Lilybelle Addison. She’s the only love of my life and she’s the person your life relies on.” He continued snarling and I could hear him but as the pressure was put on and the pain got worse just hearing him wasn’t enough.

“Cole!!!!!!!!” I yelled trying to get under control but it hurt so badly. He came over to me and even demon Cole was a comfort as he swept my hair off my face and kissed me softly assuring me he’d do anything to get the pain away and I was willing to let him do just about anything.

“Found it.” Doc said and Cole went over to him keeping his hand on my face.

“What is it?”

“All the damage from her human life as a mistress didn’t heal properly I need to do surgery. I wouldn’t call this damage from the mistress part though this is damage from the miscarriage part and it is probably what caused your daughter’s disease last life. While I’m in, though, I’d like to fix some tears that didn’t heal from where she was raped as a mistress. All of this didn’t heal at all when she changed it’s like her creator didn’t want it to.” I shivered realizing he wouldn’t want it to. Cole looked at me knowing the same thing.

“Please fix it all that the change would have fixed.” He nodded changing back to a human, “Why did it wait so long to show?”

“Lily is a fighter she’s been fighting it all and it probably never would have bothered her if she would’ve fed properly but there’s no doubt in my mind any child you had wouldn’t have made it past a couple months with the damage inside her.”

“Then it’s good you found it.” I whispered the pain seeming like nothing now if it meant I was one day going to have a chance of getting a child that would survive newborn status. Cole kissed me softly.

“I’ll be waiting when you get out of surgery.” He promised and I nodded knowing that soon afterwards he would leave again but at least I had him for a little bit.

“Cole?” I asked when I woke up.

“I’m right here.” He promised brushing hair out of my face. I tiredly used magic to put my hair back in a loose braid. “You shouldn’t be using magic right now.” He whispered.

“I didn’t want to move.” I shrugged, “Who’s going to tell on me?”

“Doc checks to see what magic you’ve done every time he comes in.”

“That doesn’t really count though it’s a power not a spell.” I scooted over and pulled on him some. “Sit with me.” He climbed up with me and held me to him carefully like he was afraid I’d break.

“Do you feel okay?”

“A lot better than before.”

“That much is obvious.” He whispered kissing my cheek, “You really had me worried.”

“I had you worried. I thought I was dying.” I shook my head which was very comfortably in his chest.

“You’re up I see Lily.” Doc said.

“You weren’t even in here.” I sighed.

“You’ve been doing magic.”

“I put my hair back that doesn’t count and nobody told me I wasn’t allowed.”

“You know better.” I shrugged giving him that one. “You’ll be in here or you can go to your house and stay in that bed under my care for the rest of the week?”

“My house.” I nodded and Cole reached out grabbing Doc and shimmering us home to our bedroom. Cole and I were in the bed now and I moved to where I was under the covers but it was hard to curl up against him. When Cole figured out what I was trying to do he chuckled and got under the covers too and I leaned over across him keeping my legs together because it was really sore where they’d fixed the tears more sore then the cut they’d made on my lower stomach to get to the messed up parts in my body. I hadn’t listened to the detailed description letting Cole listen because he’d understand and then he’d just showed me where they’d cut and told me that I’d be sore for a few days in both spots.

“Okay so you two will not be happy to hear that your time for intercourse has been moved.”

“To?” Cole asked not sounding surprised and I looked at him. “Lily-be you just had your insides fixed they aren’t going to want us messing with that for a while.”

“You could have warned me.”

“You were in pain I figured considering we didn’t really have an alternative…”

“Get a higher pain tolerance?”

“Lily-be.” He warned telling me he wasn’t hearing it. We were going to do exactly what the doctor said and he was going to leave again. I just sighed and leaned farther into his hold.

“You can’t have intercourse for nine months.” Doc told us.

“Nine months?!” I yelled, “That’s like… well nine months!!!”

“Thank you Doc.” Cole nodded but I saw the sadness in his eyes knowing he’d be away for nine months and that was the part that hurt me the most.

“After your month for the last is up you should still be okay to fight again, Lily.” Doc told me, “Just be careful and if you take any bad falls come straight in so we can check it out.”

“Okay.” I whispered not even hearing what he said just trying to figure out how I could survive nine months when it still felt like I just got Cole back. “Are you at least staying for the rest of the week?” I asked Cole and I realized I’d interrupted Doc but I didn’t care.

“I don’t think I should. If I do I won’t leave and now it’s even more imperative we don’t do anything.” Kalila walked in then.

“What’s going on?” she asked but then saw Cole getting up and the tears in my eyes and nodded. “How much longer?” she whispered, “Is it still a month?”

“Nine.” I whispered and my voice broke even on just one word.

“Nine days?” she begged.

“Nine months.” Cole said and his voice was emotionless as he came over to me. “I love you, Lily-be.” He whispered and then he was gone without even a goodbye kiss.

“I hate you!!!!!!!!!!!!” I screamed at Doc as I leaned into Kalila.

“I figured you’d at least be watching her for a while.”

“I am for a week.”

“Lily, why did Cole go ahead and leave then?”

“He said he’d stay if he didn’t.” I cried into her, “I can’t survive nine months.”

“When can she fight?”

“Same time she just has to be careful.”

“That’s not going to happen.” Ben said coming in and sitting beside me pulling me to him. I cried into his shirt and then looked between him and Kalila and comprehension clicked. I suddenly found a way to survive for a few seconds.

“When did this happen?” I asked.

“A few weeks ago.” Kalila laughed. “I was going to tell you but you’ve been sick. You don’t mind do you? I mean the rumors at school were lies right?”

“I told you they were Kali.” I laughed. She was of course talking about the rumors that Ben and I were together.

“Good.” She smiled happily.

“Oh my Gosh you guys are imprinted!!” I yelled.

“Yes.” She nodded.

“It’s about time one hundred and…”

“You say my age and you say yours.” She reminded me.

“Twenty years and never finding a man is just ridiculous Kali.” I fixed and everybody laughed. There was another laugh too.

“Cole was right you are sensitive about age.” Lucinda said coming in.

“Cole’s not here.” I said painfully.

“I know he asked me to stay here and keep an eye on you. He’s worried to death about leaving you.”

“If he was so worried he wouldn’t have left.” I shrugged refusing to feel even the slightest bit better that he was worried. The rest of the week once again I was out of school and all of my friends visited but I just wasn’t the hostess like I was last time. Last time I’d been in worse shape but Cole had been there and that had made it a lot better than this. I was relieved when I woke up and it was time to go back to school because even though I had turned down Kalila’s invite to stay with me I felt lonely. Lucinda was staying with Piper and Leo and everybody else just like she had been before and people were giving me my space just like I wanted just visiting to make sure I was okay.

“Hey it’s good to see you back.” Sara smiled sympathetically at me when I walked up to her at school. Everybody in the school was staring at me making it obvious that they all knew Cole had left.

“It’s good to be back. Cole called last night.” I smiled at her. He had too and it’d been a huge surprise I had kept my mind blocked to him as the pain had stayed just as bad.

“How’s his vacation?” she asked just loud enough for some people to hear and I knew she was trying to make it where the rumors that Cole and I had broken up would end. They wouldn’t though people would just say Cole and I were trying to talk things out.

“I’m not sure we didn’t really talk long.” I whispered frowning and she put her arm around me understanding that I’d ended up getting mad and hanging up. This separation was going to end up breaking us up if we didn’t watch it and I knew it. Nobody else seemed to realize that though they seemed to think it was just me missing Cole that had me thinking that.