Before 'the fall' - before the invasions -
We were not yet
stricken.
The slab still
upright.
Trapdoor knots
tease and delve -
Dropping blood to thinned out,
Bruised painted, bottle-necked,
Blue-faced death.
Ligatures smile and wink,
Telling the mask, the scar it burns
Is killing all others but me.
Bent sickle, triple hammer. hooks -
Thumping and slicing
Their way through gangs of little helpers -
Those who want us
To go.
Shooing away fumes -
Those clever little dots that glow and warn -
'You cannot die.'
Lead sinks into skin as a child
To poison myself, to black out my eyes.
The lead is not lead, another trick.
Some hood, hooded, quiet, with a switchblade,
Hanging tough to annihilate all life.
I sail by, open, daring, afraid.
Nothing happens. Just a pale kid on the block
Listening to
Radio Free Europe -
They are afraid of me.
A Trabant
clumps up, decapitates,
Severed links. Naked sweethearts,
Extremists who drive and bleed.
The roadside smirks at concrete checkpoints, like poppies
That once more shroud the blind sharp corner.
Me, the passenger emerges scratched,
Strapped into absorption -
Lashed - but alive.
Love for my close ones rips my throat,
A tang of almond
Glues up, then yakked out in a
Slag of dead yolk.
Splattered,
I am living.
I could be a red sloe,
Left to putrefy,
To fester in fur ball
Loveliness -
Snuggled to the cherries and the limes -
Or a barren witch,
I could pass out quietly,
Without mourning,
My stone uterus engraved -
I could be vermin, a sort of freedom,
Hunted
My death wished, my blood lapped.
Or lame in
thirties Berlin,
My hooked bones
Useless to the masses,
Buried under Supermen.
After
'The Fall' - after the invasion, their ideas of freedom.
Brick by brick.
Closedown.
A wall of white
noise. 'Die Wende.'
A McDonald's in
the Balkans
A Starbucks in Moscow and the Cold War melts.
A crescent
moon. a collection of enemies,
A red star rising through the Eastern twilight -
Mother is coming home.