In Remembrance

In Remembrance

I walked in to my home

To find an empty nest

Free from boxes along the cornered walls

I find room in the halls of my mind

Filled with memories of you

It is too quite here

Where I can hear the echo of loneliness

It has been not an hour

And while having more things to do than to fit on a page

I feel a bit lost as to what to do next

 

In the 3 weeks of my journey in the cave with you

My mind got off the bus

The counting of stops ahead

I have lost my old self

Perhaps she went astray on that bus

Where the memory of you was all business

 

I miss your lips and the lines around the smile of your eyes

Vast with gentleness

Something so unexpected

How the taste of chocolate

Now only reminds my quivering heart of a four day’s distance

Feeling less strong, less hard and protected

My senses glad to have bathed in a droplet

That contained a whole lifetime

 

I want to light a flame

I want to turn my stove on just to perhaps hear your voice from the kitchen

To pile up the dishes high to the rim of my sink

As to perhaps smell the loving aromas of the past

I want to stay up late

Long enough to remember delirious nights we shared

These four walls cannot contain

All my gratitude, desires and pain

My kitten grounding as always

Sleeping without a care

I cannot say the same