Poly-game-y

 It's hard to say no to something you want. I'm the kind of person that finds it hard to resist temptation. I have always given in and let it get the better of me. My excuse is that; it's my life and life is short.

When I think of it this way, I feel better. Better about myself, and life.

But when everything messes up, I feel worse than I had before. I would think about times like now and tell myself that I should have known better. Well, right now, I DO know better. But knowledge isn't everything.

 

People like you. People who are genuine and kind are so difficult to push away. I know that you are no good for me. Maybe you would be if I weren't in the place I'm in, but for now I know that this is only going to mess things up. The right thing to do is to just tell you to leave me alone, but I can't bring myself to do that. You make me weak. You make me like being weak.

 

I don't want to have to hurt you and I don't want to be hurt by you. It's so unnecessary, especially knowing that if I make you go away now, no one's going to get hurt. Perhaps it might sting me, for days, weeks, months. But at least I know it won't ache. I could avoid the throbbing, persistent heartache that feeds on my strength now.

 

But, will I?

Or will I risk it all, once again.

Reviews

[deeps]

This is powerful and well expressed
I can feel yoru emotion.

[Hannah Monttkomepy]

Very nice. It was a powerful piece but in a way kind of simple.

[Christopher Kneipp]

Wow what powerful emotions you have expressed. Made me want to know more, about the struggles within this character. Well done