I turned my back

I had been thinking of releasing this piece for quite some time now

I turned my back

 

Anyone would scold

So feeble I am, but not so bold

That cry instantly

No one  knows that eyes cry for what Pain.

 

Whenever would fall sick

If not our lips can’t meet

Wish could kiss your forehead

Wish could hug you tight

Like Ice I shall melt

Like mirror I shall  break

 

Would be caressed in your strong arms

Would cry bitterly

And would ask you

“Where have you been all this while.

I have been waiting for you so long”

 

Every tear rolling down my cheek asked

“Why do you let me go always”

I smiled & answered

“There is so much pain to accommodate.

Cannot let you in Sorry”

 

Shall go around your place

To ensure your well being

Tell your friends

To take care of you

Shall sit at the places where we use to meet

To witness the very absence of your presence.

 

Don’t know when did I look into the mirror for the last time.

Don’t know when did I smile for the last time.

 

The cause of rejection that I am not beautiful

“God could you make me beautiful for a day

Let me hear a yes

Then , make me ugly again”

 

Some words unsaid

Some words unheard

Alas! Decided to move on...

 

Suddenly he appeared again

Like a thin smoke in the air

My heart started to care again

People like me I know are very rare.

 

But this time not out of Love

But out of generosity

“But do you really need this mercy?”

 

Mind conquered with thoughts

For the time of loneliness

Has been spent alone

What flowers shall you place on my tomb

When you failed to care when I was alive.

 

Collecting ashes of a burnt heart

Acknowledging that I am beautiful in own way

Did not know where to  go & how to go

Making silence as my weapon

I turned my back

And I turned my back.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

A very long one. Don't know if I could do justice. The self talk is what I wanted to introduce here. Not very satisfied though. Reviews plzzzz

Reviews

[Avinash]

This one is a very beautiful and honest poem, straight from the heart. Impossible love is often more stronger in its pull than those made out of convenience. But you in the eyes of those who love us we are always beautiful. Now tell me why are you not beautiful, is it you or others who do not love you or you need to love yourself more :)

[Mary Christabel George]

Relations made out of conveniences shall stand only till the conveniences are met.
True, that we shall always remain beautiful in the eyes of those who love us.

It took me ages to realize one thing that "I need to love myself more".

[Avinash]

High 5 to that :)