How do you feel?

Messing with your emotions! https://soundcloud.com/martinos74/how-do-you-feel/

Recording at : https://soundcloud.com/martinos74/how-do-you-feel/

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How do you feel? I woke up today , I fucked a kid,  I had a sweating brow and no sign of remorse, it felt natural, How do you feel? I woke up today and gave my spare kidney to my sister, Dialysis slowly filled her life and her ruined body until I gave her a chance, a hope a beggars prayer, We weren't compatible and she died with a pain in her side, How do you feel? I woke up today, the sun was shining, I cleaned 12 pairs of shoes, and got a tip from a rich businessman, I went home tonight with a sense of pride, My family are going to eat tonight, we're going to survive, How do you feel? I woke up this morning and got a call from an old friend of mine, She spent a lot of time conceiving, But it was just a waste of time. She worked for a family planning clinic, She dished out advice, And every condom she gave out, She slit with the knife. If she can't have kids, Whilst others can, She's got the power of God, Right there in her hands, How do you feel? I woke up today, Shampooed and brushed my teeth, Got a paper and a coffee and a croissant to eat, Took the train to work, Stayed there for 8 hours, Came home, didn't save the world, I watched tv for a few hours, How do you feel? I woke up today, There was a rattle on the door, It was the on duty officer, He called me a w***e. Life is funny though, It's full of ditches, hills and twists, Life is so f*****g funny, I know where he lives with his kids, How do you feel? I woke up this evening, I'd spent the night on the phones, Listening to suicidal people, Listening to their woes, I try to convince them, that life can be bliss, I try to persuade them not to throw themselves off the bridge, I'm no saint, so don't treat me like one, I want no recognition, I am humble, How do you feel? I woke up today, And got lost in 50 shades of grey, It helped me forget why my bed was empty, Why my husband wasn't home, Why his business trip had mysteriously been extended, Why I was here on my own, How do you feel you b*****d? I woke up today, I was bleeding from the hips, How do you feel? I woke up today, I got up and milked the cows before sunrise, I saw the sun come up and burn the mist off my rising crops, I felt the soil beneath my feet, Golden, red, rooted and torn, I felt like mother earth, Beating slowly and warm , How do you feel? I woke up today, The lift was broken, AGAIN, The stairwell smelt of piss and was full of strewn profalactics, I thought I'd be all right in my slippers, All i wanted was some milk, For my cornflakes, for my kids, Ok, I'd been on a bit if a binge, so I needed some f**s too, My life changed in a second, With a poisoned syringe, How do you feel? I woke up today, My life was dull, My husband was dull, I lived in Norwich, If I was gonna have kids,  They'd be accountants, DULL, Who gives a s**t though, My lucky numbers came up, I stayed with my husband for a year, Suddenly friends were all around me, Everyone was interested in me, They found my fat waist attractive, Are you messing with me? They even liked my music, Peter Andre, How low will people go for a bite of your cherry? I gave it all away, I put it on black, not red, I lost it all, I am happier now, Happier than when I had money, Happier than when I had no money, How do you feel? London - UK - September 2012 ------------------ https://soundcloud.com/martinos74/how-do-you-feel/