missing my parents today

Thanksgiving ,when one is on the journey to death , brings poignant memories, regrets, and most of all love

the importance of my parents 

this thanksgiving weekend:

i think about them  as i do every day

but miss them more

i wanted them to know that i am a grandmother

i wanted them to see the blonde haired, brown eyed little beauties

i wanted to talk to them ,to tell them about my current life

explain my sorrows past , present and future

i wanted to talk about their own lives more than they shared when they were alive

i wanted to cry 

to hug

and to comfort

all at the same time

no dad here to protect me from mean comments or gossip , to come to my defense

no mom to tell me '' dont worry'' you will meet someone 

no mom to be by my bedside when ill

or to  go with me shopping , especially for the white wedding gown of my youth

no dad to say to me at seven in the morningn'' rise and shine'' time to go out for breakfast

no dad to  play his opera , jazz and classical music in our home

no dad to go to the library with , to the city with, for fun, and to Understand how this world works

to be savy , skeptical, and  also ,most loving

no dad to watch do the nytimes cross word puzzles in ink   outdoors on a Sunday morning

with his cigar in his mouth

and no mom -- no mom  the ultimate love

the sustainer of our family

marilyn nepp sturner  nov 25, 2017

Author's Note

thanksgiving weekend's feelings

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i hear ya, marilyn...

having those same feelings this holiday season...first one without either parent still in this world...mom left 3 years ago...and Dad this past March...

seems pretty strange-----
i miss them both ....
thanks for this poem.

j.

[marilyn 1225]

Jacob, thanks for reading and as always your great empathy. I am sorry that you lost your Dad this year,, it hurts, and the memories of both never leave.I think holidays are especially rough on many... thank you again!!