Lies My Father Told Me.A Poem by Marianne MillerI'm not sure if I want to turn this into a short story or maybe an longer more succint poem?Drowned in youth With teenage warnings Everything can fall to pieces Out on the edge you rope me back in Block the window and turn on the t.v. She can’t break now. Chipping and searching the open door Creaks and beckons a run Slam it shut, missing baby fingers She can’t fall now. Pillow soft whispers telling tales of hard lives And thankless work, princes are thieves endings Aren’t always happy, carpets won’t fly; But yes Angel, you can wish on a star. She’ll sleep soundly now. Cocooned in an embrace her wings unfurl They meet the silent reigns of the cage too delicate to see Unknown; too late to feel a silk as strong as steel Gazing across a kingdom glow; she belongs to this earth This ground is hers, it nurtures and grows for her to use But she can’t see, it feels dead under her feet, stifled of natural ingredients No indulgence to leave its mark, the ground feels dead and cold Other grass is brittle; it’ll cut your toe sweetie She’s heard it before, come inside Bolt the door and play cards instead. These stories I’ve heard, these stories have bred me They provide no comfort for ears long grown They rot and fall away what can be done Seventeen is a dangerous age No more looking, no more staring no dreams or wishes to Save her now, calling and wishing has brought no knight so alone The modern tale must fight, scoping the home that filled such tales With guarded edges she must test, can the spell be broken or will her carriage Turn to fodder as warned? Drowned in youth she must escape With teenage warnings she tried to help them understand her pain but they cannot see Her foe must be met; with a ribbon she threads her argument around the Cocoon, challenging the grip of cold steel She enters the labyrinth of lies demanding to test the toads for herself She checks her line, secure. A gold glint catches her eye, Facing the beast of the middle she doesn’t she how familiar its distorted shape is, how reticent its stature, ready for its riddle, its unnerving cool, she steps. Exhausted and battered, weary and drained but exalted she retreats. She waits for hours she wills it to speak the monster of her nightmares stalking her room and challenging her dreams to see the reality of the world Seventeen is such a dangerous age, She follows Aurora’s path she has spilled her own blood and stands firm in her consequences. The challenge has been laid down; the next move lies with the other. She knows this may break her. Days, weeks she lies in rank agony with the monster in her world it makes no reply It ponders her riddle how can she leave and stay? To save her wings from being crushed must she break the cocoon? Too much destruction. The heaving beast towers towards her, the glint of its eye solid, concise in its direction she can feel the hot breath bearing down on her Why had she engaged it, is the extension of a limb worth the destruction of her kingdom Panicked she feels small as it traces her scent back to room. It has found her. Standing she feels her breath gain a little stronger she knows the end has arrive. Reckoning is here but she is ready, she called the maligned animal on its charge and is ready to be defeated not for herself but for the two that follow. She opens the door and falls. Gazing, startled she looks closely at the face behind her door The beast is dead, the Minotaur face is placid, the thundering hooves and oxen strength arms are laid to rest. She gazes at the eyes carrying the beast to her door, she sees a familiar curve at the mouth of her rescuer, no more looking at a snarling sneer a hand takes hers in his and presents the ribbons that lead him home. She looks at the faces around her now, no more alone; no more afraid she is surrounded by faces all alike in eyes and mouth, gentle and tender. She sees now for who they are Gazing at the floor her broken pieces lay on top of the beast, confused she feels who How can I break and still be me? The faces push her back into her room and close the door Opening the window to let fresh air in, seventeen is a dangerous age And the
world is a dangerous place, fiddling with the man’s cufflinks she recalls noticing
their first glint how threatening, how scared.
Now she sees them simply. Not a
call to gaze at strong arms or menacing airs but plain things, simple in their
means. Solid and strong with one desire
to protect the wearer from open edges, unseemly looks from flapping cloth, laughable.
now, she agrees, she knows she has killed the demon of her dreams but she never realised that the man who would provided her the means of rescue was the creature himself. She is broken; herself and her constraints lie around her in tatters But she remains whole; the beast never was and never shall be seen again in her eyes She sleeps in gossamer whispers delicate and frail they may break at any moment, but she will crack no-more, seventeen is a dangerous age and now papa she knows that when the world is dark and the edges are hard you will be the beast again patrolling the door, not to keep her in but to keep the bad things out. She can sleep safely now. © 2010 Marianne MillerAuthor's Note
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Added on March 20, 2010 Last Updated on March 20, 2010 AuthorMarianne MillerUnited KingdomAboutI am a writer living in the brand new old town of St Andrews. I don't have a prescribed 'type' of writing, Who does? So I have chosen some loosly from the list below. I am an artist, a photographe.. more..Writing
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