All The Good Lies

As I sit in this dark room, I realize everything isn’t okay. My heart literally aches, and deep down I knew it would. Deep down I knew my heart would be broken again.

You told me lies and those lies were such good lies. You don’t even understand how I knew not to believe them, but by the words you chose I started to. I lost myself in the moment, because I thought maybe for once.. maybe just once I would be wrong. I thought maybe you’d prove me wrong.

At the end of the night I was right, I was always right and I knew I would be. As much as I didn’t want to believe it, I knew I would be right. I knew you’d leave just like you always did, and you wonder why I wouldn’t give you everything? I would never again give my everything to someone who far from deserves it. To someone who would at the first chance they got. You my friend are far from anybody I thought you were.

You proved me wrong and in a sense I felt some relief like I could move on now, but today as I lay here I feel empty. Like I was proven wrong for what reason? What reason was there for me to be broken like this once again? What reason? I just don’t get it.. i don’t get it at all.

Once again I was left wondering why I was so worthless and why I was so easy to leave. Once again I was left feeling so empty inside, like everything I though was all a lie.. like everything I felt meant nothing.. like people always leave. I should have listened to my mind and not my heart, he never really did change and I should have known it.

Reviews

[KeeD]

Hi, this is the first piece of your work I have read.

It reads like a tattoo, it's permanent and it's painful to take but it is also beautiful for it is an experience and it is scar that people can wear proudly. Without feeling empty, how can we ever feel full and this is what I interpret from your story. Having lived through a similar situation and recently having my dead and damaged heart healed, I understand every word and just like a phoenix we rise again :) Nice stuff, keep writing, looking forward to seeing your creativity.

[Mariah Dinneen]

Thank you so much and although its painful its nice to know that someone else really understands. :)

[Tony Jordan]

This is so deeply honest.
My heart was killed. It lives again !!
Keep faith in your own healing.

[Mariah Dinneen]

Thank you!

[Ghania]

Heartwrenching. Some people do ruin us for others. And it really becomes difficult to start afresh, once they give an end to our life. Still, there's always a new beginning for an end.
Very deep and thoughtful!! Well-done. :)

[Mariah Dinneen]

Thank you!

[Ghania]

You're Welcome. :p