Ascent to maniaA Poem by M. Shepherd
ascent to mania
It is entirely all over everywhere not at all nowhere anywhere a paradox is a truth. The fat melts off the bone in the heat of the spit too fast and scorching to drip into dying mouths As there is no net to catch a butterfly moving so fast But it is unbearable to move so goddamn fast, unnerving to wonder at its source, where energy of this sort is decidedly unnatural. It is a herd of monkeys in a tizzy. an alarm going off in the unreasonable hours of the morning after a night of vodka tonics, one after another, like lemmings lining up to leap to their untimely deaths. It is a fluorescent lamp in the dead of a starless night at a haunted bus stop in a desolate prairie, and it is the whine of the mosquitoes that flock to it. It is the low hum of a whale call, and the tinny ring if the high notes of a machete song were isolated, just so. It is bungee jumping off of the highest height knowing that the cord will break, and welcoming its break because that would truly be living.. and then just as swiftly it would be dying. But to live so perfectly in that moment might overwhelm the senses to the point where maybe death would arrive before even the rendezvous of skull and pavement. An all too punctual guest, death. But these thoughts are only knocking and the door is locked tight. So. For now we can keep it together. The ghost of the elephant is in the room. Shhhh; don't. tell. anyone. It is... not needing oxygen, inhaling instead words or images and exhaling whatever medium haunts the mind. It is the running of the bulls if it were December and snow flurried to hot summer concrete. If hooves met slush there would be frenzied haywired crash landings. Some blood, too, to splash merrily into the slush. It is the battle of every stalwart blood cell in the body of a man shackled with AIDS. Each cell fought, captured, prisoners of war, sentenced swiftly to torture, a not so swift death. It is a torrential swarm of locusts and demon frogs from the cosmos It is the roar of every Niagra and the haunt of the spirits of those who've jumped. It is not only seeing beauty but comprehending beauty, the mechanics of it, its clockwork. It is understanding every language ever spoken every word ever written. It whelms softly, on the cusp of whelming over. But it sits there, on the edge, threatening, seducing.. It is an innocent sugar rush making furious love to a rampant crack binge, a catholic schoolgirl seducing a meth addict.. she knows not what she does, only how to do it. She sees nothing, Feels nothing, only this music, only this song, and she dances. It is being kidnapped into the collective energy of every overworked honey bee. It is decompression sickness, A torpedo from the depths. It is realizing that everything you see and smell and hear happens all at once and that, as an experience, life is, living is, rather overwhelming. And with your thoughts racing along inside you, beside you, a thousand yapping terriers scurrying alongside a mustang, following all of it, the blinding light, the deafening sound, the acrid pinch of it all whistling up your nostrils.. Einstein. It was Einstein's atom bomb, which was simply an idea before it was a reality. © 2016 M. ShepherdReviews
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Added on January 28, 2016Last Updated on February 3, 2016 AuthorM. ShepherdPortland, ORAboutLate bloomer and shy of sharing I'm ever reticent to reveal But here I am, ready. more..Writing
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