Post-Traumatic Time Mathematics

Dramatic

How long does it take to forget about me?
Two-hundred-sixty-five days? Convert that into two weeks.

It has been eight months and counting

And I am still stricken with grief.

You only took one-twentieths of that time to forget.

I took and will take more than twenty-twentieths to do so.

I took one-twentieth of my whole life to remember.

Did you even have a whim of how long it would take me?

There were countless times where you saw all of my effort.

You should have discovered what I attempted to convey.

Especially when it comes to countless 'I love you's' a day.

So innumerable, that you would think that my feelings are tangible.

How many times do I have to remember you?

How many times do I ask myself "what was wring with me"?

How many times do I have to re-live this horrid situation,

Only to reassure myself that I have to become numb with these foul memories?

Countless times, countless hours countless days, countless minutes

Until the feelings multiply themselves to become infinitely numb.