when will it get better

aug 25

the hurt the pain just shows up instantly i dont have time to prepare just comes and sends me to the lowest feeling.

The warm tears go down my face the craz thoughts ome in and bombard me .

The things that keep me impared keep me alive

 i hate the feelings that come i am done i cant take the popping feelings all the time.

I want to get a break from it all

Ill be so happy  and then all the sudden crash right back  in a drop of a pen

when will it get better

the pain keeps showin up and getting more frequent and more painful as things happen

when will it get better i say as a tear runs down my face

i cant take this anymore

starts the planning then i stop my self with the thoughts of my sister and how i want he to be happy and teach her the things i wasnt taught till later

but the thoughts of what i want shoots right through my heart and breaks me

i scream when will it get better

but the only thing helping me is the impairment

why cant things jus go right for a while ?

looking at the past and wishing i could go back

Screaming when when will il get better the pain causes me to shake

its all bouling up i can feel it

tears are dripping down

whispering when will it get better