fadeing

the fast pace
heat raceing the time flys
my eyes roll when will it go away ?
my chest tightens back tightens
i want to be the best
what about the past?
hearing that song sent a blast though me
i just want to flee from it all
the pain the hurt all the choices
glad all the blades are gone
but i feel like im fadeing
why am i not out there dateing
the fadeing just happens but why?
i dont want to die
i want to fly so high
accomlish all the goals i hold
the writting brought it all back
all the pain it all
i wanted to cry scratch cut it all i held it in as always wanted to break
then i went to the bathroom and cryed a lake
wiped the tears and lied to a friend
were you crying? no allergys
the fakeness i hate thats what i am
hate them ? no hate myself