chims

the time seems to go so slowley
you hear chims in the distance
he many days where stress just overwhelms
you lay there trying to come up with a plan
do i dare be happy?
the many mood swings
the blood drips no longer
that may be why i dont feel real
the redness out of that place showed me
i go through the motions ting not to feel
mak a deal dont feel anything anymore
the many painful things that have happend
the many chats with people where you want to pour your heart out but wont let yourself
the memories always come back no mater what you do
dont let anyone in because you have been hurt
the burns and scars all over show it
the time your happy is at the pretty placex or with the razor or pen
chim goes agian all i long for is peace no more weight on my heart
pull the darts out suture ut up 
i want light i dont want to have doubt