Here and There for Me

In amongst the madness,

In where i am and where I've been,

There is something I've been watching,

Like a tide to bring me in. 

Maybe you would reach me,

If you only ever could.

I'm far too late for saving,

Swaying from those who never would.

You see, i'm running through the vista

of dark, imaginary space.

And as you're here, i see you leaving.

at a slow but steady pace.

and you can say it all you want.

That you're here and there for me. 

but here under the pounding waves, 

its as hard to hear as it is to see

Through all the stumbling I've been doing,

all the pain and jerks and breaks,

all the love that you've come to give me

can't soothe my soul, if it ever wakes.

And theres no one there to listen

no matter what crowd that is around.

All i want is to be touched by you

but i cannot hear a sound.

You're all I've ever wanted.

and I've fallen in your arms.

You're hurt that i cant tell you. 

the ringing sound of the alarms.

So many scars and marks and bruises

You know i cant explain them all

You think i'm finally getting somewhere,

when I've run headlong into a wall.

I want you to press down on me,

its the only fix i know.

You don't know how you're hurting me,

with the things that you wont do, the places you don't go.

and you'll always be above me.

its all a song that i cant sing.

i'd let you turn me inside out,

but you wont find anything.

Because i'm hollowed out and salted. 

and you say you pray for me.

but i'm barely here to start with and

i don't believe in any heaven i cant see.

you could probably save me if you wanted.

you know any faith i have's in you

just crush me in your warmth

hold me, is all i ever wanted you to do.

you've pulled me out of the ocean.

now i'm choking on the shore.

i want to give myself to you.

but you do not really want me,

and it cuts me to the core.