I Can't Keep You At Bay...

Keeping you at bay

Is easier said than done

 Keeping you away...

I can't. I simply can't.

I deserve all the pain 

Because who knows how much I've caused you.

I try to deny what's coming

For as long as I can

But lately,

 I 

seem 

to 

be 

falling

Into my own despair.

What I'm supposed to be

And who I am

And who I want to be,

It all means nothing without you by my side.

"You can do better" they're telling me

Really?

Let's think about that...NO.

I've never been happier,

I've never felt such love,

I've never smiled so much,

My heart has never been this light,

And I have never had a true reason to sing.

But with you, 

Everything is possible.

I can be who I am.

So let me understand this correctly:

Because of me

Because of one stupid act

They said

I have to let you go?

Hell no.

It's not an obsession

(Just to clear that up)

It's something they don't understand.

So how am I supposed to tell you how I feel

Without it sounding

Like a madman's call?

How am I supposed to remind you you're amazing

When I can barely talk to you

Without an interruption?

How am I supposed to be reassured you'll be back for me

When the sound of my heart breaking

Keeps resonating through my mind?

I'm not questioning you

Or the fact you love me.

I know that.

I know it's more than enough

To change everything.

So, to obtain my dreams:

My life with you,

My happy future

A fantastic job that I love

A beautiful home,

What must I do?

I've pulled off the impossible

For you.

So to stay with you

Imagine what I can do.

So tell me.

Because I'm not going to keep you at bay.

Reviews

[Guilt]

There's a dramatic mythological romance in this. I say mythological because those stories always contain individuals who gamble with extreme choices, and it's like flipping a coin to see if they end as a legend or tragedy. This time is the turning coin, but you've chosen which side to gamble on, and I love imagining the ferocity behind your determination. Could easily imagine this as a spoken word.

Really enjoyable, thanks for posting :)

- Guilt

[Alisha Heistand]

A pleasant and unexpected review, very flattering, thank you I'm glad you liked it :)

[RachelReaper]

I saw an entire story in this, someone's entire life (your entire life, I'm assuming), and it was moving. This is my favorite poem by you so far, it really stays in my mind. Your word choice was excellent.

[Alisha Heistand]

I'm glad, thank you

[L. Catherine]

Knowing the context behind this, I find this poem extemely moving and full of passion. Excellent work.

[Alisha Heistand]

Thank You

[QuietlyCrash]

"How am I supposed to be reassured you'll be back for me
When the sound of my heart breaking
Keeps resonating through my mind?"

Very nice I love those lines. Great job!
Have a lovely evening,
Riley :)

[Alisha Heistand]

Thank you very much :)