It Takes Only One To Destroy Your Inner Peace

I have too much to say but never know how too. All over the shop type of poetry.

I cannot be who I was once,

My mind overtakes me.

My heart physically beats but is metaphorically unavailable and shattered.

Tears sometimes flow freely-  as the are the only acceptable escape.

It's ridiculous that I could let someone influence me so,

But for those of you who have never been so low- count your blessings because there's a handful of us who will never be good enough for anybody.  

I don't dramatise these situations,

The feelings are always the same.

Maybe I am with the wrong people,

Especially the ones who love to play the game.......

If I ever hear something so cliche again like:

"Bubbly" "Self-respected" "never neglected' is what ticks all the boxes for you,

I'll laugh so much until my heart explodes,

Then hopefully I will die and feel no more.

If emotions could be ripped out of my body never to return,

I'd rid of love, care, desperation.

If I could remove the qualities I posses, 

I'd rid of hope, optimism and any other 'good' qualities I possess that attracts all of you who need me so desperately for an hour and not a lifetime.

I can't wait anymore,

I have chosen a road of hate, sieving through these situations that made me feel good for only a minute of my long life.

Why can't I be more grateful of my life... after all I am alive.

But right now, that's not enough to be grateful of.

To love with all your heart, and never be loved completely in return-

Is intensely painful.

Hormonal imbalances overtake logic in the brain,

And all my heart sphincters now is pure, unloving, unforgivable pain.

Reviews

[W R Stowe]

I can really feel your anquash and desparity from this poem.I to have been there with loving my heart out in action but was never returned.Never lose your selfworth they are not worth it.I know it seems forever but the pain subsides and life will continue be patient and when the right one comes you will let your gaurd down.Expressions of emotions were presented well

[CA Anurag Sharma]

beautiful poem...so nicely written....