Dear my most beloved

A tribute to my most important person

I told you once, and now I’ll say it again,

You wouldn’t have understood it back then.

When I claimed that losing you kept me up at night,

The thought truly was a terrifying fright.

 

You repeatedly saw through my entire being,

I could barely believe what I was seeing.

I tried with all my might not to fall deeper in love with you,

But all those genuine acts of kindness touched me, what could I do?

 

As our memories and feelings began to tangle,

I slowly began to feel our souls fiercely entangle.

And this is when I encountered the big scare,

Because I knew I was beginning to fall into your snare.

 

And it seemed the harder I pushed and shoved,

The more you pulled and loved.

You weren’t prepared to go down without a fight,

So instead, I made the decision to take the first flight.

 

And I loved you even when I chose to leave,

But all it seemed was that I had tricks up my sleeve.

I promise to you that I felt for you from the start,

But I didn’t trust myself, so I tried to be smart.

 

But in hindsight, my actions did not reflect cleverness,

Instead, they reflected immaturity and stubbornness.

And I’m sorry that I could never believe,

That anybody could ever fall in love with me.

 

So what right do I have to explain my thoughts?

Because I had been the one to call all the shots.

What could you have done?

The only choice you had was surrender.

 

So when you ask why I crave to see you,

It is because I am unable to let go of us two.

If one day you do not wish to see me,

I will still hold onto you fearlessly.

 

Even if all is left is physical love,

I will allow it to be like this.

For when I say you are the most important person to me,

I mean it in the most sincere and everlasting way.