Peach

Outward, outward, outward again to the map in your room and the false promises you made to yourself in a caffeine stupor of overspending and mania denial 

Then again in this space with an empty page and taunting curser flashing your defeat over and over again announcing so loudly in your head just how alone you are in your thoughts and body 

If ever you allow your buffer to wear thin

Allow yourself to feel the icy wind blast up around your ears and echo to you how your dreams of difference from your youth were not different after all 

You are no more than them 

We are as they all were 

fillers between the births and deaths of millennia 

For a moment a tear wells in your eye as you see for a moment your existence from one hundred years away in either direction 

The feeling of falling inward completely 

I take a bite of my peach 

Juicy the salvation swells in my mouth and a drip falls from my lips 

In the moment I am reminded of my instinct to hurry the juice away 

I stop myself 

There is fear in the chaos of the run away juice 

But in my despair there is a strange strength to give in 

in the smallest way 

The peach follows the trail of my tear and drips off my chin to some part of the world that exists below it 

It was a beautiful moment of experience to let go to and allow myself to feel something move freely across my skin as it pleases 

Simply to enjoy the sensation 

If only for a moment 

Then another dry bite and I am back to the abyss of my world

Healed yet again against the grain of reality for another hour

Another day, another lifetime to fly by and another experience to forget 

But for a moment 

I was real 

Reviews

[costa siwale]

this is a good verse. well written

[SAYED THANGAL]

Well written verse, enjoyed your poem.