Why?

Why?

A Poem by And She Sings
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I can't believe this.... It's all my fault and it has always been this way. I let her in and I let her make me feel good, and then I depend on her. I can't depend on anyone. Ever.

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I never thought I would be here again.

Never thought I'd let someone this close again.

I pushed you away 

Now I need you to stay

But that isn't how it was supposed to work.


I feel like a fool

For letting myself

Believe that you could be

"It" for me.


Your touch is intoxication

Your spirit is liberation

So why do I feel trapped

in my heart?


With all of my soul, I

Dreamed of a girl.

Just like you.


What is a lover,

an addict,

to do?


Your kiss was a celebration.

Your light, a new revelation.

So why do I feel I got the

short end of the stick?


You made me a deal,

A promise you couldn't keep.

Of course,

 you couldn't have known

the curse of my heart.


Once it is open to you,

It could be yours forever.

If I don't have your favor, please

tell me now and save me the pain.


Could you ask me

One more time

If I'm feeling alright?

Just to assure I can

Get through the night?


I had guarded my heart

for so long.

And for what?

A few fluttered-out butterflies

And an ache in my stomach.


Could it be though, that 

in reality,

We're dancing around each other?


Around the 

elephant

in the room?


I want to think

that could be the case.


I am sorry that 

I went and messed everything up.

I'm sorry that I can't keep

Anything this wonderful

As professional as you would like.


Most of all? 

I'm sorry that I'm too big of a 

coward

to tell you how I really feel.


If only the world

could silence for a second,

I could get some peace and quiet

in my beating heart.


Who am I to blame all the people

When I know what they mean now.

The emptiness that life can leave you with 

in the midst of your contentment.


It's nothing.

That's not true.

I had an off day.

Tell me what's wrong.

I can't.

Why not?

...


Because it's not wrong.


Because it's just right,

At the wrong time.

In the wrong place.

With the wrong one.


Because I love you when we said

that is what this can't be.

Because I love you.



But mostly,

Because you don't love me.

© 2012 And She Sings


Author's Note

And She Sings
This is sort of me pouring my heart out. I wish I could say I have resolved this, but I can't. Any advice you can give would be very much appreciated. Unless you are the one in question. You should probably call me. Oh, and one more thing? Told you so.

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Wow that is very sad, but very good writting! Good job!

Posted 11 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

And She Sings

11 Years Ago

Thank you! :)

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