Soliloquy by Happy Loman

A spin off soliloquy by Happy Loman from "Death of a Salesman" by Arthur Miller.

 

            Willy Loman. A great man, a great pa, and a killer salesman. When me and Biff were growing up Dad was always there for us. Trying his best you know? He was good at bringing home the bacon, heck, he was practically unstoppable. I had always looked up to him and my big brother Biff, they were such role models to me. I remember how we always used to play football, and Pa would be so happy and focused on Biff, I guess I just ran along with them. I wanted so badly to have that connection with him, but I guess I wasn't his favorite. As Dad got older it got harder and harder for him to sell, I guess he lost some of his charm, or whatever it was that made him so successful. Ma started to worry about him, because ya see, he would talk to himself. We all knew he still wanted the best for us, he still wanted to bring home the bacon, like in the good old days. But he couldn't. I thought that maybe if I stepped in I could make him feel better again. It wasn't so bad. I got a job and started helping out around the house. Me was real appreciative to, she liked having someone else around to sympathize what she was going through. It was all getting a bit too much to handle. But pa didn't change, he still didn't pay me much attention, even though I really was trying real hard. I guess I could have lived with it without too much trouble. But that was until my brother Biff got home. He made Dad so mad. Biff was the shining star as a kid. A brilliant football player, with great charisma. He was going to make a great man some day. The only trouble was, he was really lousy at school. He bummed out in life. Couldn't keep a real job. Had to keep coming home, and with Pa’s state I think something in him just snapped. I know he only really wanted the best for Biff, as we all did, but Biff made him more mad every time he talked to him. Maybe that was part of the reason Pa…no. Biff was just, being Biff. Especially when he went to go see Bill. He had all the right intentions, it just didn't turn out right, but I tell ya, Pa was so mad. I think it started to take a toll on Ma too. She started getting real mad at Biff too, and Pa. It almost felt as if the family was falling apart. It was real hard. The night that he left us, well it’s going to stick in my head for the rest of my days. I realized something that night though. Pa really was a great man, and although sometimes I felt like he didn't pay as much attention to me as he did to Biff I knew he loved me all along. He worked do hard to build up his reputation, and I won’t let my brother tear that down. My Pa was a great man with amazing dreams. And I’ll be damned if I see them die. So from now on, I am going to take over for my Pa. I’m going to make all his dreams come true, and he’s going to watch me from heaven. Yeah, he’ll know, and when I see him again he’s going to be so proud of me. It starts today. 

Author's Note

Some of the slang is intentional due tot he time period in which the play was written.