Leave Me Alone, Please

I don't want to talk
I just want to cry
you don't understand
how much I wish to die
these painful filling thoughts
they drive me insane
leave me alone to walk
by myself in the rain
I have a heart of fear
covered by my smile
I try not to show my tears
just for a little while
I walk alone for hours
sad thoughts stuck in my head
I feel like a small coward
it makes me wish I was dead