Forever&Always<3

It's the way he walks, with such confidence.
The way he looks at me, with those gorgeous blue eyes.
Its the way he plays with me that leaves me into the resulting questions of... Why? How? and Can it be?

I find myself thinking. pondering. believing. he is my everything in short of God.
My mind can't. doesn't. and won't. rest, he's all i can think about. dream about. talk about.

The way he makes me feel is so INDESCRIBABLE! it almost drives me crazy!
When I think about how much i miss him, it hurts.
My heart aches! ACHES to talk to him again! ACHES to see him once again! and to feel his embrace. ACHES! Aches!...aches...
But somehow, the simple thought of him makes the ache numb. a good numb. a numb i find soothing.

Its the way he smiles when i enter the room.
The way he holds me in our embrace.
With his simple touch, he makes me feel relaxed. calm. composed...
Its the way he lightly kisses my forehead before we part that leaves me, for only seconds, in a whole new world.

I find my heart racing, racing so fast I feel it will beat right out of my chest! louder and LOUDER IT BEATS! THUD THUD, Thud Thud, thud thud...

My heart and mind fail to cooperate together, I cant even begin to find words to express my feelings.
Are the best words, the words that are never spoken?

The little things he says, leaves me with hours ans hours of thoughts, unbelievable.
At night i lay in darkness with those same questions echoing in my mind violently...

why Why? WHY?!

how How? HOW?!
can it be Can It Be? CAN IT BE?!

finally silence...

Why...? there is no absolute answer as to why he choose me, why our relationship runs so deep, in such a little amount of time. Why he is so significant, exceptional, remarkable. Except for God...

How...? there is no answer as to how we both moved to the same small town, as to how we attend the same church and youth group. EXCEPT... God

Can it be...? no one knows... except for God.

He is my forever&always.
<3February 14,2010 C.B.B<3

...silence.