7.9.16

It all comes back

Before I can realize where I am

They are their

Patiently waiting to take control

Just for once I wish they would leave me alone

And let me decide

But no

As I exhale

They appear

I should know by now that they are here to stay

I have tries so hard to make them go away

From therapy

To sex

To weed

To alchol

They still come back

After the high

The buzz

The ecstacy

They return

I hate them

They’ve made me lose

Have robbed me of my chance at love

Snatched it without a warning

Oh how nice it would be to escape from them and love

Have no on to control

No one to rob

They will die

And I can’t allow that

They have been with me since day one

I hate them but I can’t escape

They will continue to steal life from me

Because that’s all im good at

Feeding my life to the insecurities that are me