lovers

this poem talks about my struggle realizing that God is my one true lover and secndary lovers were only sitractions

I have had lovers of deep

They promised satisfaction

They promised fulfilment and joy to me

In the end i received neither

The fantasy ended

I would sit in chairs flooded with tears of wonder and guilt, it was all i had attended

I wondered how there could be love when it made me feel broken

I wondered where there could be a such thing when this was all unspoken

I couldn’t believe because i felt

Rejection

Shame

Guilt

And oppression

How was there a lover that could fulfill me when i was left empty?

I searched for my joy in every place

Every corner every crack.

Thinking that just one could satisfy

I had no one - guilt was my alibi

Nothing would gratify

I was only isolated

Nowhere to turn, nothing or no one could keep me satisfied

I felt unsubstantiated

But my lovers were only distractions

They were masks to hide from me the main

Attraction

I had met a lover who came in the moment He knew i needed it most

His name is Jesus, The man of heavenly hosts

This lover was like no other,

No. this was different. This lover had a name that i could call out

And he would respond

But not with enticing vanity or desire

But this lover called out with love from who he was

I found satisfaction in this lover like no other

He was different, he loved me enough to recover me

Little did i know this lover had chased me down

He chased me down through the roars of the sea, when i pursued every other lover, He still wrecked me with his mercy

This kind of love doesn’t exist i thought

How can i contain this

As i had cried on the floor He strained my emptiness

I felt the chains fall and i was embraced with readiness

My new lover, my beloved is a lover of my soul

He taught me how to trust him, He showed me the way

And although a few time’s i was lead astray,

My lover had grace that allowed me to turn away.

Jesus is His name. Jesus is name.

He is my beloved and He is my satisfaction.

What waters can quench this kind of love?

The deepness of this love was only achieved through my desire to know Him

This satisfaction rose up in me

My sin only showed me that it will never fulfill you if it breaks God’s heart

This journey of finding my one true love was winding

But he met me and love was awakened

Now i was unshaken

I am the bride. He is my groom.

He longs for our dance because this is the greatest of all romance

Your beloved calls and waits patiently at the table

He wants to use you and make you whole

You will shift the culture around you

Your life is now beyond your control

Come enter His presence

Experience the lover

The other lovers are false, but i have found the one that is true.

Lay it down for your King, for your pursuit

He’s your lover and he only will satisfy, no substitute.

Awake awake oh love

Awake awake oh bride

We aren’t disqualified because now we are identified

I’ve experienced other lovers

But it’s all just vanity

Then i encountered your son, encountered his love,

And it transformed me.