I Was Beginning

I was beginning to think

that no one could love me.

That I was a broken collection

of confusing paradoxes

too nice, too mean

too lonely, too social

too shallow, too deep

too devoted, too distant

too passionate, too crazy.

I was beginning to think

that no one was

ever going to take the time

to see and understand

that grey is an unfamiliar

area to me.

I was beginning to think

that people were afraid

of the girl with a cast

around her broken heart.

I was beginning to think

that every possible negative thing

I could think about me

was true

but

then one day, I decided

that I was worth more then

the negativity that had

darkened my mind and blackened

out the reflection of a girl

with pig tails and ribbons

dreaming of falling in love

and dreaming

of being happy.

Reviews

[Amy Cowan]

This poem is lovelt, so sweet!!! True!!

[Maddi Snowden]

Thank you!

[katnisscat]

This poem is really good. Many can relate. but I don't understand the lines:
ever going to take the time
to see and understand
that grey is an unfamiliar
area to me.
Please explain, what is the "gray area?"

[Maddi Snowden]

The grey area is the area between the two paradoxes. For example, too lonely and too social. I was either one, or the other. There was no in between, no grey area. It was an unfamiliar area. Does that make sense?

[katnisscat]

oh, yes that does make sense. Thank you so much. It is very creative and well put together.

[Maddi Snowden]

Thank you!

[PoetryPenPal]

I love the ending of the poem. It brings a sudden light to the poem. I also like the part where you said," I was beginning to think people were afraid of the girl with a cast around her broken heart. This poem was very good.

[Maddi Snowden]

Thank you!

[PoetryPenPal]

Your welcome!