astonishmentA Poem by MaeRedI am a time bomb waiting to explode!!! I think I came morbidly close yesterday! I am so tired of beingUSED by any and everyone that really knows me. I think yesterday was the straw that broke the camel's back.... just one little not so hanus thing brought me to a point where I actually could have turned on EVERYONE I knew and loved. I have NEVER been so upset, fed up in my ENTIRE LIFE!!! I had to NOT speak most of the day for fear I was going to verbally destroy ANY and EVERYONE I came in contact with. So I waited til I calmed down to talk to those who had nothing to do with my problems. I did have a problem trying to find a shoulder to cry on... people have lives, but when people need me... they can find me and I put down what I am doing and put others aside when necessary. But I have come to notice it is natural and everyone isn't me that is why I am always disappointed. I guess it is meant for me to be who I am, to make me into someone better. Maybe all of this is to actually make me better or different. Only GOD knows. I am trying to be lead to my plan HE has for me. This is all new for me I usually bottle up my anger, so this is different for me, I'm in awe of the feelings I had yesterday and all of the guilt that came with it. I was ASTONISHED! © 2011 MaeRed |
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Added on April 4, 2011 Last Updated on April 4, 2011 AuthorMaeRedpittsburgh, PAAbouti consider myself a "new breed" of Emo...i have been sufferin for so long, and now there is a name that i fit into but i am too old...then it was grunge, pop rocker..now it is Emo..i like that so i am.. more..Writing
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