She

Written 10/29/16

You’re becoming a person you never thought, you’re changing in front of your own eyes

You don’t know if you like it but it’s good and everyone plays along, but it’s still so brand new and confusing; scary and unknown

There is shock, confusion, joy, lust, judgement, grace, but do you enjoy any of it? It’s so hard to tell

The fear of the constant accusations is overwhelming, but if that didn’t exist would you still feel the same?

It’s such an easy life, but is it you?

Are you just being influenced again? Who are you really?

You don’t know what to think, your head just spins and you happen

But then you get certain thoughts and it makes you think, “What if I really was wrong?”

The thought of having your years and sense of self be a mistake when you were so certain is a nightmare all its own