Lost in Confusion

I'm lost , I feel like i don't know myself . 

Maybe i do know myself. 

I'm getting used to being the new me . 

But i feel lost in this world, the good world, the better world, for me, for us. 

I've never felt how i fell right now. 

Its new, i don't know it, makes me fell awkward. 

Alone. 

Its over whelming.

I'm trying so hard to fell normal. 

To except this life, this chance that's been giving to me. 

To start over, be a better person. 

Not just for my little family, but myself. 

HOW DO I DO THIS!

My mind wonders off and starts thinking that i cant do it. 

My heart and soul tells me that i can do anything i want to. 

I can have anything, i control what happens and doesn't happen. 

You bring it upon yourself. 

So then why?

Why do i feel like i'm going to explode. 

Could it be fear holding me back. 

Taking away my sanity and filling it with negativity. 

Making me feel heavy, making everything so hard for me to do. 

Even waking up drains my mind and stresses me to where i just want to give up. 

But i cant , i need to fight , be strong, be the person i know i can be. 

Maybe i'm over thinking it, and everything will fall into place. 

Hopes , Dreams. 

Finally my wishes are being answered. 

Yet i don't know what to do, now that its here. 

Except it and take a chance. 

Enjoy it!

Always remembering that the lost and confusion is still there.

Very much alive in me. 

Am i damaged?

Maybe. 

Am i giving up?

No!

Excepting myself for who i am. 

Excepting what i have to do to be happy. 

Excepting my new life, with arms wide open. 

Go ahead life , give me everything you got. 

Reviews

[Trouble]

Very relative, when everything is in front of you, and have no ambitions to reach for it. Nice writing.

[Lyricalfairydust]

Thank you. Very much appreciated.

[Writer at last! Sky ~]

To be or not to be. The dilemma surrounds you from all the ways. Don't give up!

[Akash gaikwad]

I enjoyed the poem!! It takes you through a twist if confusion and overflow of thoughts. Just wanted say that if you are confused then that's because that means atleast you are thinking

[Lyricalfairydust]

hmm i like that last part , interesting, didn't think of that way.