The Quest of Life, Love and Eventual Happiness

i wish there was another way to deal with this. poetry has become the warm blanket to my chilled demeanor

My heart beats for you. My love rings true.

But I still have to give respect to where it is due.

Obeying my father to stay separate from you

Has shown me that its possible to love my family and feel lonely too.

My emotion's color is blue. This just isn't  fair.

But I just wouldn't dare, to oppose his view.

I'm pulling out my hair in my dreams every night.

Seclude myself in my lair where I beam every light

Of despair or a fear that opportunity is lost. 

I struggle with his happiness because I fear the future  cost.

He's the boss, but I hope your love does not become my loss.

So I patiently wait to prove my love was never false.

It is only a life with you that I earnestly seek.

You're on my mind everyday and now im feeling like i'm weak

In the heart so let me start to dissipate this mental fog.

I dig from this grave for air hoping to see my shadow like the groundhog.

But I can't. Its simply gone although the sun is to my west.

Its like im half of myself without you to push me to my best.

Now I see that this trial will become my mental test

And it will be worth our while if we finish this timely quest.

Author's Note

i tried out a different rhyme scheme in this one. tell me what you think!

Reviews

[mR668]

WOW! Taking so much from this! Been here before, being young and in love, parents not thinking you're are ready....and right for the most part. Great thought, even greater view. Lovin this write....took me back!

[LisetteCanWrite!]

Wow.. this is such a raw feeling embedded that so many deal with.. the thin line of happiness .. sometimes we have to do what's right for us to be happy.. sometimes we have to pay attention to what a high-ranking (in our heart) family-member's wishes are as well.. it's a balance that can have costs on both sides.

Depending on your age.. if young you should listen and study.. but most still want to LIVE a little through even high school.. the future cost is one that's paid by your heart.. to have regrets and go for it.. or have regrets of never doing the things you would like to do.. LOVE sometimes overrides this .. on either end.. the flame or parent could win.. or both could win.. if you find a way through compromise.. sometimes that does not exist though.. this writing leaves the mystery in the hearts of readers in a place where most have found themselves at one point in life.. great job!