Summer, the year 1999
I
was nine. The dream entered me unwillingly and without warning. I was a victim
of my own fever. My senses picked up things that I was unaware were reality. I
was between a world of dreams and sentience. My dad dug through the icebox
downstairs, a sound that was like crashing glaciers to my ears while I slept
above in the loft. His words left his mouth as a whisper that was so loud it
shredded through my skull. I’m sure I was sweating, feeling the peak of my
illness. The heat of Missouri nights in summer is febrile, and the chirping of the
insects and peeper frogs in the forest grows deafening. While this sound was
usually comforting and familiar, tonight it transformed into helpless fear. My
usual boundaries of black static protection had been compromised; the fear
penetrated through the easily shattered veil above our home in the woods. Dad
was in his studio below me, his fingers clicking away on his laptop keyboard.
Mom was nodding off in an armchair, until the whistle of the teapot pierced her
soft snores. Then suddenly It was outside. The typical oversized green head,
eyes large and glossy like two gleaming black beetles. My rising temperatures
saw fit to increase the bizarre experience by dressing It in dirty brown
overalls. The piercing sound of katydids grew louder and their usual slow
rhythm was now stressed and urgent. He crouched on the deck outside our front
door, unaware that I knew. Now something new overpowered my fear--- anger and a
pure, innate drive to protect my family. The splintering noise of he katydids
rose to its peak and turned the clear night sky into glass which suddenly
shattered and sent shards raining in slow motion onto my sleeping body. The
sound and fear of this hallucination was so extraordinary that it pushed me to
the surface of my nightmarish slumber.
In a
panicked state I broke away from my sickbed drenched with sweat and climbed
down the ladder to alert my family. I was ready to wage war on whatever evil
crouched outside. Delirious, I shuffled into my father’s office and immediately
he sensed my distress. Being a father that believes the intrinsic truth of a
girl’s fairytale fears, he bravely stepped outside with, if I remember
correctly, an axe. When he reappeared, his calm expression remained. Without
delay I stepped outside to get a look for myself. The deck was clear, so was
our yard, as well as the sky. The moon was so round and luminous that nothing
could hide. The veil was still damaged and it was important to be wary, but
nothing else would dare approach our hearth. As my father continued to look
about with a hand on the butt of his axe and the other around my shoulder, I
stared out across the clear air between the moon and I. Air that was unusually
clear… Air that soon floated the sweet green aroma of the dogwood trees past my
vigilant senses and reminded me that there will be more nights like this one.