monsterA Poem by lydia gracelet’s imagine you have two hands, and one of them is holding another hand and now you have three hands because you are a fucked up concoction, an amalgamation of everything you’ve ever loved and hated simultaneously, and that third hand is still there but you don’t know whose hand it is; it’s not yours, that’s for sure, you’re frankenstein and his monster all at once. “i’m not a monster,” you say, “i’m not i’m not i’m not,” but then you still wear the clothes that you bought when she loved you, right? you still listen to the music that she played for you, right? and you say you’re not made of her, you try to tell me that you’re not tangled up in her irrevocably? the problem is there’s no surgeons for people like you. when you start to bleed out, the doctor says: “oh, sorry, there’s nothing i can do. that’s really too bad.” and you say, “oh! that’s fine!” you’ll just keep f*****g bleeding then; are you supposed to stop this on your own? you keep bleeding because you’re using a makeshift tourniquet and it’s fashioned from an old t-shirt that your mom gave to you when you were only five. shut up shut up shut up you want to say, because the weather is nice and that song you like is playing and you’re driving to school and you think that should be enough. why does this keep happening? stop f*****g bleeding. why are you still bleeding when the weather is nice?
you steal other people’s words because you can’t stay alive on your own. that’s what i mean by monster: you can’t exist by yourself. you refuse to. you only exist as long as people let you, as long as they cave into your silly little fantasies and tell you that they love you. as long as they keep giving you t-shirts that you can use as tourniquets, because you’re always bleeding. one day you’re going to run out of blood. © 2021 lydia graceReviews
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2 Reviews Added on April 29, 2021 Last Updated on April 30, 2021 Authorlydia graceWoodstock, GAAbouthi! i'm lydia; i write poetry!! i'm an amateur, unpublished writer and i'm looking for critiques. no one i know irl reads poetry so i really have no objective basis as to whether any of this is even a.. more.. |