July 31st 12:12 AM

possible TW

I will make this as artistic as possible to take away from the thought of me bleeding out into this doc. I will make this as amusing as i can throwing it puns and joke to hide the fact that you are truly gone and at midnight im just alone and at one im just a mess realising that youre gone and at two my heart breaks to hear the news that everything i loved truly left and its my fault and at three i will put on courage the cowardly dog and try to remember what it was like when i was truly happy and at at four i will sing along to star shopping wishing you were here beside me to hold onto and at five i will open myself up to strangers, making sure not to drip blood or else i will be yelled at and at six i will beg for you back, letting you know im sorry when im not and at seven i will wish i was a good person and i will wish and wish and at eight the birds will chirp and i will realize i havent slept in a month and at nine i will make breakfast. Lucky charms, but just the marshmallows because who the f**k cares about health when your whole world has crashed and at ten i will lay in bed anf fantasize about my death and at eleven i will run a warm bath, throwing in my black bath bomb and at noon.

At noon i will rest.

Author's Note

its supposed to ramble on. i dont do proper capitalization.