Dear Friend

Dear friend, 

All the life in me has finally been sucked out. I feel dry and writhing by each passing day. I did see a ray of hope a few months ago. A ray that came when there was hope they'd let me go. But instead they shut me even tighter with 10 more locks and 20 more chains to hold on to my soul. Now I see them smiling into my cage feeling proud they've never let my phoenix awake. I've never had the freedom to do what I loved. So, I changes my loves to what they loved. But it doesn't matter how much I try, I will never reach that bar they set so high. Now my life doesn't feel like it's mine. It's stained with decisions made by them and for them. Now my heart has stopped beating or singing any new song or playing any melody. They've glued on to my favourite dress making me despise even the thought of wearing it but I can't throw that dress away because it's tendrils have grabbed onto my days. I don't even have the pleasure of a breath that is not calculated. I don't even have a moment that is not analysed. I don't having a living, breathing mind anymore. It's just a puppet. They've got what they wanted. They've broken my spirit. They have tamed me. 

Now all I await is for you to come. I need you to come through all my walls and all my fears and help me join hands with the one thing I no longer fear - death.

Friend, I am waiting.