The Daddy I Never Knew

this poem is about the absence of my father and what impact it had on me

Questions arise when your name is called

Should i call you daddy or by your first name

Haven’t seen you since i could crawl

So what do i say?

 

Do i become angry?

That you were never here

Or that you decided to get locked up

I guess you never really cared

 

You never taught me things you should

But i learn them i knew i would

You turned me cold

Made me disconnect

 

And so questions arise when your name is called

Should i call you daddy or by your first name

I haven’t seen you since i could crawl

So what do i say?

 

I have forgave you for what you done

But that doesn’t take away the pain

So many questions i need to ask

Just to get things straight

 

Like how should i feel?

Or should i change my last name?

Because it’s connected to a place i know not of

Some may argue that's kinda strange

 

I used to say to say to myself "kiddo be strong"

Daddy coming back someday

But at this moment I’m not so sure

Can i even remember your face?

 

So questions arise when your name is called

Should i call you daddy or by your first name

I haven’t seen you since i could crawl

So what do i say?