untitled and undone

it just turned midnight
and the tired sky fell asleep
eyes closed on the misfortune
while lids rest on the misgivings
that your heart wept for yesterday.
 
reflecting, at midnight
you were good.
you were bad.
you were transition.
you were the one i never had.
 
told you, "so long"
my heart still in tact
but  was i wrong?
was i done?
 
miss you a little,
remember a lot.
accepting now that i deserved
better than i got.
 
the ride was fun; when you let me
and your black or white remains undone.
lazy sundays spend sharing sumptuous treats
blue destiny, it was, that we'd meet
 
i wasn't falling in love with you
but i cared
and found that
i...
 
loved that, sometimes, your heart was open,
 
and you were so beautifully nice.
loved that you always had my favorite drink.
yeh, and
i loved  the times with melted ice.
i loved to watch you think.
i always loved how you made me hate you
and
i loved to close my eyes and see you smile.
 
loved all the things we used to do
but, truth is...
you were only willing to be "once in awhile".