itshard

maybe im overthinking

I have been trying very hard to adjust to the college life. Not even the one where you're away from home and living an entirely new life. But, just the college academic system has truly unraveled my anxieties. I am never confident that I am doing things in the right manner or even sure if I am mentally prepared to even be enrolled in college. I feel too stupid for this, I feel like I have nothing to offer. I am so afraid to fail, but I am going to keep trying. A lot of things have mentally been draining me or even mentally causing me to feel unsteady, but Im going to maintain my faith. The first month has been full of setbacks, but I hope to come back to this a few months from now and see that I was able to do it- I was able to beat these odds against me. I really hurts, when you lose all the people you go to vent to, its hard doing these things alone.