I fell asleep

I woke up this morning with my list filled out

I knew where I was going,

I would not miss a thing

Then on I-20 on my way to work,

my tire blew out,

 my radiator popped,

my car stopped,

and I thought, wait a minute, this can't be,

All I know is I feel like quitting

I am doing everything

like everyone else

Putting on my fake smile and doing my boring job

Where I can't and don't help anybody

Why isn't it working for me?  It does for everone else??

Why am I not happy?  Everyone else is???

 Don't I have a job, a position, money? 

 Everything I ever asked for; after years of struggling, all of a sudden just handed to me....

Why do I feel guilty? 

 Don't my kids go to school looking real snazzy, making straight A's...... 

oooh just look at all the pretty necklaces to hang the keys from around their tiny necks...

cause mommy won't be home till late, her job is needing her more than me

daddy, well he is in the grave, the pressure of not selling out wore him out years ago...

binging on artificial happiness to survive; they did over and over

till he drowned in the cold, harsh, reality.

Brothers doing meth now, acting all wild and crazy

Sister going to have a baby with the man who she lets beat her

While mommy does her job better than anyone else.....burying the truth

Wake up Wake up....I fell asleep

 

 

Reviews

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Oh wow! I can see this really happening!
I like this alot. I remember going to school in my best Goodwill jeans and T'shirts. This is wonderful.