That Day I Cross Your Mind

To you, I'm often always transparent,

so bittersweet how my presence doesn't move you.

Too little too late I am now aware of how my words go unheard,

my skin untouched. sure it took me a few years and a month of Sundays

to realize enough is enough. But its okay karmas gonna do one hell of job at
what I wouldn't. Funny how you think I won't quit just cuz you say I shouldn't?

I'l be damned if I stick around & put up this again.

Funny How you seem so surprised by this,

I've been warning you for months where the hell have you been?
I didn't withdraw from you for fear of rejection,  better yet a fear of disappointment. Fear that my words fall on deaf ears. I rendered this matter too superficial to deal with so your excuses seem a little more realistic.

But none of that chases away the lonely nights you left at my door step

or the vacant confusion lying next me where you used to be sleeping.

I'd rather walk backwards into traffic than to admit I miss your sorry a*s.

But that doesn't change the fact that I do. I can't wait to hate you,

for the thought of you to make me sick.

But that doesn't change the fact that I still care.

Ironically id answer if you called, open the door if you knocked.

Though you let her take my place, I hope she keeps it warm.

I hope she makes up for what I couldn't do. I hope she delivers to you that sympathetic pat..on the head...with a hammer.

Forgive me if I seem uneasy, me and karma just had it out. You know that b***h the nerve to prove me right?
And someday its gonna pay you a visit. That day when I cross your mind,

But it won't come in like me, it won't give you the chance to take off your coat and get comfortable first..No No its gonna come in full swing. And everything thing you ever did to me will be its driving force.

smash into you,

it will come crashing, down on you at the dinner table

when you call her Janet but her name is Ashley.

You'll carry the weight that once haunted me,

when she does to you what you did to me.

And yes i am proud of myself for walking away from this bullshit.

Your big and bad, you made your bed, have fun laying in it.

Get ready to lie awake, swimming in those penniless thoughts,

feeling the same way I felt. Its sure to make that a*s think twice

about doing this again to someone else.

 Yes, karma,

You and it will collide that day when I go running across your mind.