On the Verge of Sanity

Moments when I think I might lose it

There are moments when I stand on the verge of going insane. As if I stare through the world, straight into the nothingness. I feel it as an effervescing delirium rising from the roots within me slowly taking control over my whole spirit. As if I can turn inside out at any moment. Everything resonates with the spirit within me and frightens me as if I were left to die. Loneliness springs from this moment and drips trough the holes of my soul. Nothing feels real and the whole universe is compressed within the space I find myself in at these moments. It amplifies the loneliness of life and clears the thoughts on sanity. Something which happens to be our definition of being against which we should revolt. What does being insane have any less than being sane? For all I can imagine I would be a more complete, harmonious being if I were driven into the world of insanity and total dislocation. That is why I surrender to these moments and hope that once the effervescence will prevail over my sanity. Once I will have to surrender. And once I will.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Clif]

About your references to Spirits and Soul, Do you think if you were reincarnated from a past life, and your previous existence suffered from mental illness, would the insanity pass on to your new life?

[whatmighthavebeenlost]

If you'd believe in the idea of reincarnation i think that could be a way of looking at it if you acknowledge that there is an influence of previous existence on your current existence.

I personally do not think the idea of reincarnation is really true although I cherish it very much and think about it quite often. Also I do think that it doesn't matter wether or not something is true if you can learn from it so to say it is not really true does actually not mean anything.

I hope this answer is somewhat satisfying and thank you for you reply!