The Mask Of Misery

I wrote this a few years ago, while i was going thru my divorce and trying to find the right meds for my bi-polar.. PRAISE GOD that I finally got over that hump but as we all know it is always a struggle.

How are you today? I'm fine or so I say...

I'm dying all the while. Laughter on the outside,

crying on the inside.  But the tears won"t come, I'm all alone.

Why do I do this to me?

I could be outside and go all about

But, I hide in my misery!!!

Why can't I tell of the tears that fell??

And put me in my private hell,

Who is to blame but me.

Tears are a form of healing,

and laughter hides the pain.

Why oh why can't I go back to the way it used to be?

But just like the sunshine follows rain...

Happiness will follow the pain!!!!

But what is happiness?  They say you will find it within,

but how can that be???

When I don't even know the real me.

I stop and smell the roses, but all I get are the thorns.

I used to love my garden, now its all over grown.

Roses need care just like people. They need to be cut back to bloom. God is the Master Gardener.  He uses our problems to prune us, and our blessings to make us bloom. Bloom where we are planted, but Lord what is your plan for me??? I hope to be home with him soon for all eternity..   Amen 

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[lavenderskye]

Like I said I wrote this a long time ago I just came across it and decide to put it on this site I had put a couple of others on here but they got lost when the site went down.. I am happy to say I am married again to a great guy I LOVE YOU BOZ hope you all like the poem anyway . This comes with the bi-polar the ups and downs of depression.