Nobody

I'm a nobody. People probably notice me, but pay no attention to me. I'm just another body filling a seat in a classroom, wasting away my parents money. If someone does notice me, it's for an insult or to laugh at me. But I just keep walking trying to ignore them. I bury myself in books all day to ignore everyone around me. And they ignore me back. Thankfully. 

I've had a couple of good friends but eventually I lose contact and when we start talking again, we have nothing in common. I've never liked the idea of friends. It's just another thing to keep up with. And I hate keeping up with things, much less people. Everyone has their own little things that annoy them. Mine is people. I can't stand crowds of people. They all make too much noise and make me feel claustrophobic. So I tend to avoid crowds. Which keeps me away from pretty much any social event involving adults or teenagers. Especially teenagers. The Valley Girl accent and "like this happened at like this place and she like totally like made out with this guy." Both of those make me wanna kill. 

Not only am I a nobody, but I'm unloved. Not the paternal kind of love, but the guy/girl love. I get so jealous of couples who do little things for each other to show how much they love each other. The kisses on the cheeks for no reason, fixing them their favorite snack, doing something they hate for the other person. I just wish that someone would do that for me.