to long to matter

I'm not honestly sure about this story anymore. Comments?

“I’ll let you know when I figure it out myself.” I spoke quietly mostly to myself rather than Tyler.

“Why do you have to figure it out? Shouldn’t you already know who you are Ruby?”

“I should. But a lot of things have happened since we last talked Tyler.”

“Like what Ruby? It’s only been three years.”

“Yeah. Exactly it’s only been three years like you said. Three years changes a person Tyler. I am not the little helpless girl that you used to know.”

"You could be."

"No Tyler I can't be."

Tyler was really starting to get on my nerves, I didn't need to have anybody come here and cause drama with me. That's what got me here in the first place. No, what got me here in the hospital in the first place was cutting. I shook my head slowly no Eli causing drama got me thrown in the hospital.

"Ruby look at me." Tyler said looking at me.

My eyes reluctantly found their way to his eyes.

"I know that you are not the same person that you used to be Ruby. But I also am not the same guy that I used to be. I know that your parents death must have changed your life a lot, and the fact that you had to come out here and live with your aunt and uncle probably didn't help anything. But Ruby, you can't just shut me out from your life. Don't you remember how we used to be? How in love?"

"Yeah, Tyler. I do, I remember perfectly. But I can't stress it anymore than I already have. I am not the same person that I used to be. I've changed."

I honestly felt like a broken record saying the same thing over and over again he just wasn't listening to me. Even when we dated, I never remember him being that assholeish. I didn't remember him being that pushy either.

"I can see that Ruby, I can see that this Eli must have had something to do with it to."

"How f*****g dare you say anything about Eli. You don't know him. You never even f*****g called to see if I was okay for these past three years. You have no right to talk." I spat angrily.

Tyler was taken a-back by this and his jaw kind of dropped a little bit.

"Wow. Ruby, I think it's best if I take my leave now."

"Good get the f**k out now." I spat and he left quickly in a very flustered fashion.

Now I sat alone in the to brightly lit hospital room and started to lull into a catatonic state.

Did I really just stand up for Eli after everything that he has done to me? Sure I thought that he was going to be my best friend since forever but you know. Things change right? Right. Honestly nobody ever stays who they are for the rest of their lives, i'm living proof of that. But somebody who is also supposed to be your best friend since you were in diapers doesn't just lie to you all of your life, "Forget" to mention that your dating his BROTHER of all people. And then turn up and leave you when things turn for the worst. Not a call or anything.

I laughed just a little bit to myself. Wow, I was starting to sound like my mother..Or well. What she used to sound like when she was still living. Back when I could actually be happy.

But that was to long ago to matter.