lost heart

you think
you know
know someone...
but you dont.
and no matter
how many times
you say that
or hear it
the realization
is ten times worse.
when a friend
kisses u
knowing he has a girlfriend
how should you feel
when he starts
rubbing his hands on you body
making you feel things
you thought youd never
ever feel again
and for that moment
you lost in those eyes
those hands
the way it feels to have his
body pressed against yours
the way you can move
as one as he touches
more deeply
more tenderly
all you can think about is
how much you want him.
no matter how forbidden
it is, you want him
to you yours
and only yours alone...
when he finishes
inside you
you start to come out of your haze
and realize the horror
you just did...
unspoken words
hang in the air around us
and all he can say
is that he shouldnt have done that
his girlfriend wouldnt like that
all you can think is
how shattered your heart looks on the floor
as the wind blows it away
like dust in the wind.
the silence becomes a sure sign,
as you leave him
standing there
you turn and look back
and someone who used you heart
you convinced you into
something you should have known was wrong
any man who is willing to cheat
on his love
isnt worth the time
but the moments you've shared
stay in you heart as a burn
that will never heal
not even through time
it will bleed
it will hurt
and every time you see him
its a deep reminder
that you a f**k up
and a reminder that any chance you had
at love
diminished
it shriveled away
like a dying flower
the heart you once had
is now gone
the piece of youself you thought
you found turned out to be
fools gold at the end of the rainbow.
forever
and
always. 

Reviews

[Matt Stewart]

This was hard to read. So much emotion is flooding into this and yet, that's the goodness and realness of it. This is what poetry is made of, when the artist can associate with others, or make others feel their pain.

[Philip Smith]

I feel your writing, it's truly from the heart