A lingering question

please comment on my work I will say I just write it out and dont worry about how its formated lol but my main concern first and formost was to get the imagery there I have twiked the gramar stuff so tell me what you think

Crying holding my pillow tight my heart aches between each breath. How much pain must I take before you'll look deeper to see the hurt you have put upon me, my love was given so eggerly and thrown away so needlessly.  All i could do was stand there and lie as my heart cryed and sunk into my stomach feeling stupid and useless as I watched you walk away with a carefree smile. You claim to know me so well why didnt you see the side i hid from you. Why do you still beat me down and not notice your impact. No one could hurt me as much as you have already done. I bandage myself up again and again hiding it so well i must because you are so clueless to my suffering.... or are you enjoying my heartache? What have I done..? What did I do to cause myself such an ill fated series of events?