Wonderland

This is about my struggle with depression and anxiety, specifically Fall 2012.

Remember all the colors I used to hear

Remember all the sounds I used to see

Thought it was nothing but my depression

That was wonderland to me

Remember how my eyes were blue

Remember how my lips were burgundy

And I was so cold and pale

Well that was wonderland to me

My hair grew dark and it was shining

I ran away so happily

I was considered out of line

But that wonderland to me

I didn’t know where I was going

I didn’t know where I had been

But strangely that was wonderland

But I wouldn’t do it again

Because I cried and cried

My eyes were full of tears

I wanted so bad to end it all

And give up all those 18 years

But there was beauty in the breakdown

It made me into who I was supposed to be

So never mind the pain

That was wonderland to me

Reviews

[Lewis Davis-Norman]

This one means a lot to me because I'm the same age as you and had to deal with the same things in fall 2012 too. Its so personal to me that its scary. Sometimes it can feel like life has exhusted itself, but there is no way of knowing that unless you open your eyes to a brighter, more benevelont future. My favourite line: 'It made me into who I was supposed to be' - we all exist for a reason, and yours is to write like this.

[LeeAnne Elizabeth]

Wow, it means a lot to me that you're able to relate to it so well. And yeah, I totally agree with you. Thanks so much.