The Things You Asked Me

When you love an addict, nothing is ever simple, until you make the choice to walk away.

You asked me to go

But I preferred to stay

You asked me to smile

But I held a face of dismay

 

You asked me to be happy

But that’s simply something I cannot do

You asked me to be different

But myself I cannot subdue

 

As time went by things started to change

My denial started to thin

And was quickly replaced by disappointment and rage

 

I was upset with myself

For not seeing the truth

I was upset with you

For being so beautifully crude

 

When I realized what I had done to myself

And the reason for my discontent

I despised every moment with you

And wished nothing more than for it to end

 

You asked me for help to feed your addiction

But I preferred to say no

You asked me to not to send you away

But I preferred to make that call

 

 

You asked me to be a part of your regression

But I cannot give anymore of myself to you

Because I have been the biggest part of my own deteriation

 

You asked for my support in your decision

But I chose to walk away

So I wouldn’t have to watch you sink deeper into seclusion

 

You asked me to love you through it all

And I said that I have and I will

But I will do it from afar

Author's Note

honest opinions, please. :)

Reviews

[Everett DeValle]

Lovely thoughts of your emotions on this poem...when a relationship doesn't work out, it doesn't work out...no sense in continuing to beat a dead horse when continually working it out means working each others nerves.

[MS. BABy]

This was really honest and beautiful, i loved the back and forth conversation and the coming to a conclusion....I enjoyed...

[paparapapa]

I honestly can't decode what the story is behind the poem. It sounds so complicated but I guess this complication added to the beauty of the poem. Makes the readers think of what's going on inside the author's mind. Anyway, this was beautifully written. The occasional rhymes made the poem smoother. Great job.

One thing though...
"Because I have been the biggest part of my own deteriation"
~I really liked this line, since it has the internal conflict that I like and it has a powerful emotion to it. But is it supposed to be "deterioration?" Just checking. :)